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Wednesday, August 22, 2012


The image you see above is now the wallpaper on my office computer monitor. 
Have you prayed about it? 
The setting in which I do ministry has recently changed.  This new place is unfamiliar and big. 
There is much to do.  Last week I had a moment when I recognized that I was trying to do things under my own power and not taking everything to the Lord first. 
Have you prayed about it? 
Now, when I sit down at my desk and begin my day, this is the first image I see. 
It is there to remind me to pray—first. 
Have you prayed about it? 
I also see it periodically during the day. 
Have you prayed about it? 
And finally, it is the last thing I see before I rise from my desk and go home in the afternoon. 
Have you prayed about it?
In the gospels Jesus prayed, he encouraged his followers to pray, and he taught them how to pray.  Have you prayed about it? 
Over and over again, the authors of the New Testament letters encourage their readers to pray. 
They tell us things like: don’t be anxious, but pray—if you don’t know what to pray, pray anyway—pray for your leaders—pray for each other—pray for strength—pray to be fruitful—if you are sick or in trouble, pray—pray continually.  Whatever it is, and only you know what IT is,
have you prayed about it first and often?
I am excited and challenged to begin my first semester at Asbury Seminary next month. 
I am excited about my new church and working with the young adults and senior adults. 
I am excited about the things that we will soon be doing in evangelism, hospitality, and nurture.
I am excited about the many other things the Lord will call us to. 
I am praying about it and I will continue to pray about it. 
What are you excited about?  Have you prayed about it?
What are you concerned about?  Have you prayed about it? 
Will you pray about it?
Take a moment and pray about it.

Friday, October 21, 2011

a moment for drunks and others who try

It was a lifetime ago, but I've used some things and I've abused some things.  I am thankful that the grace of God carried me through and I'm not that man any longer.  I also thank God that those things never sank their fangs into me so deep that I couldn't get away from them no matter how hard I tried.  I'm currently preaching a sermon series based on the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, because even though we're not all addicts, we all make mistakes, we all hurt others, and we have all been hurt by others.  The 12 steps are about healing and forgiveness and God. 

Like I said, I've never really been there, but I have compassion for those who struggle and fight to live.  This poem was sent to me by someone who has been there; someone who tried and lived.  It made me cry.  This moment is dedicated to those who tried and lived, and those who tried and died.

by Jack M.

We died of pneumonia in furnished rooms
where they found us three days later
when somebody complained about the smell

We died against bridge abutments
and nobody knew if it was suicide
and we probably didn't know either
except in the sense that it was always suicide
we died in hospitals
our stomachs huge, distended
and there was nothing they could do
we died in cells never knowing
whether we were guilty or not.

We went to priests
they gave us pledges
they told us to pray
they told us to go and sin no more, but go
we tried and we died

we died of overdoses
we died in bed (but usually not the Big Bed)
we died in straitjackets
in the DT's seeing God knows what
creeping skittering slithering
shuffling things

And you know what the worst thing was?
The worst thing was that
nobody ever believed how hard we tried

We went to doctors and they gave us stuff to take
that would make us sick when we drank
on the principle of so crazy, it just might work, I guess
or maybe they just shook their heads
and sent us to places like Dropkick Murphy's
and when we got out we were hooked on paraldehyde
or maybe we lied to the doctors
and they told us not to drink so much just drink like me
and we tried
and we died

we drowned in our own vomit
or choked on it
our broken jaws wired shut
we died playing Russian roulette
and people thought we'd lost
but we knew better
we died under the hoofs of horses
under the wheels of vehicles
under the knives and boot heels of our brother drunks
we died in shame

And you know what was even worse?
was that we couldn't believe it ourselves
that we had tried
we figured we just thought we tried
and we died believing that we hadn't tried
believing that we didn't know what it meant to try

When we were desperate enough
or hopeful or deluded or embattled enough to go for help
we went to people with letters after their names
and prayed that they might have read the right books
that had the right words in them
never suspecting the terrifying truth
that the right words, as simple as they were
had not been written yet

We died falling off girders on high buildings
because of course ironworkers drink
of course they do
we died with a shotgun in our mouth
or jumping off a bridge
and everybody knew it was suicide
we died under the Southeast Expressway
with our hands tied behind us
and a bullet in the back of our head
because this time the people that we disappointed
were the wrong people
we died in convulsions, or of "insult to the brain"
we died incontinent, and in disgrace, abandoned

if we were women, we died degraded,
because women have so much more to live up to
we tried and we died and nobody cried

And the very worst thing
was that for every one of us that died
there were another hundred of us, or another thousand
who wished that we could die
who went to sleep praying we would not have to wake up
because what we were enduring was intolerable
and we knew in our hearts
it wasn't ever gonna change

One day in a hospital room in New York City
one of us had what the books call
a transforming spiritual experience
and he said to himself
I've got it
(no, you haven't you've only got part of it)
and I have to share it
(now you've ALMOST got it)
and he kept trying to give it away
but we couldn't hear it
we tried and we died

we died of one last cigarette
the comfort of its glowing in the dark
we passed out and the bed caught fire
they said we suffocated before our body burned
they said we never felt a thing
that was the best way maybe that we died
except sometimes we took our family with us

And the man in New York was so sure he had it
he tried to love us into sobriety
but that didn't work either,
love confuses drunks
and he tried and we still died
one after another we got his hopes up
and we broke his heart
because that's what we do

And the worst thing was that every time
we thought we knew what the worst thing was
something happened that was worse
Until a day came in a hotel lobby
and it wasn't in Rome, or Jerusalem, or Mecca
or even Dublin, or South Boston
it was in Akron, Ohio, for Christ's sake
a day came when the man said I have to find a drunk because I
need him
as much as he needs me (NOW you've got it)
and the transmission line
after all those years
was open
the transmission line was open

And now we don't go to priests
and we don't go to doctors
and people with letters after their names
we come to people who have been there
we come to each other
and we try
and we don't have to die.